Unlike other other OCD patients I have spoken to in the course of my recovery, I have only had OCD complaints at a later age. In 2010 I got overworked and sat at home. One thing led to another and I became entangled in a serious depression. In order to treat this, I received conversation therapy and medication. My body and head reacted totally allergic to the medication; I had horrible nightmares and fears. This was also the beginning of my OCD complaints. I became more and more anxious and started to try to control them by means of coercive actions. Eventually all this resulted in three hospitalizations within a year.
With medication and under treatment of a capable therapist I finally went home and slowly took up my life again. Work and family became a normal part of my life again. The depressive and compulsive symptoms were under control, but clearly not gone. I decided to accept this as I was not open to changing medication because of the previous experiences.
However, I remained curious about alternative solutions. After all, the symptoms had not completely disappeared and the medication also made me emotionally flat. On TV but also on the internet there was talk about promising results as a result of rTMS treatment.
What I could find about it on the internet sounded fascinating but also a bit scary. Magnetic pulses on your head? I got strange associations. Nevertheless, I decided to contact the neuroCare Group for a first interview.
What I immediately liked was the scientific approach of the treatment. The therapist was sober, experienced and yet very empathetic. After an initial screening to see if I was suitable for the treatment and the examination, we quickly set to work. Because my depressive symptoms were still present, it was decided that in the course of the process not only the OCD but also the depression would be treated with rTMS.
Contrary to what I expected, the pulses on my head were very well tolerated. It didn’t hurt and after a while I was completely used to it. So much so that I could have an ordinary conversation during the treatment.
I have had 30 treatments in the meantime and in the same time I have reduced my medication to about half. Test results show that I am still doing well, even a lot better than before the treatment. The OCD symptoms have almost disappeared, the depressive symptoms have diminished a lot. But above all I have the feeling that I am more ‘myself’. I can intensely enjoy small things again, feel again and live again.